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A song that depicts my current life so accurately. I wrote about Being Twenty Something  7 years ago and how time flies without you even realizing...I am already in my 30s T_T! If I could, I would have told the 20-something-me, stop worrying and enjoy your life! If you are still in your 20s, I strongly advise you to: 1. Travel more 2. Forget about those crappy relationships 3. Enjoy being single 4. Play hard but work harder too 5. Treat your family well 6. Save and invest ASAP 7. Buy yourself a property 8. Spend time with true friends 9. Get involved in volunteering work 10. Most importantly, have an open mind, go for your dreams and have no fear. I am sharing the above from the bottom of my heart, lol. I wouldn't say I have regrets but I think I could have done more and better in my 20s :) Your 20’s are your ‘selfish’ years. It’s a decade to immerse yourself in every single thing possible. Be selfish with your time, and all the aspects of you. Tinker with ...

Bin sent me this the other day. Do you agree?    I have to say, I still hold back at times...hahaha   Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.  ~Rose Franken  

3 weeks after the accident and I am almost fully recovered with minor side-effects that hopefully will be gone few months later. I do suffer from dizziness and had difficulties to focus due to cerebral concussion but I believe my brain will be back to its normal state very soon. I did feel a little emotional after the accident but a conversation with the crabbies helped. Especially when I was told that they are glad to be able to speak to me again *sob*. Just realised, it was that close :|. Enough of the accident. Let's talk about something happy. Within two weeks, I attended two weddings and visited a new born. I am so happy for my friends :) I can still remember few years back, Ah Tai told me about this girl he met in the church. Fast forward, 2 years later he's married to the lovely lady. It was a fabulous wedding held in Hotel Maya and also a great gathering with the Lepak Here group (most of us are quite sensitive towards the group name...hahaha).  Visited th...

appreciation [əˌpriːʃɪˈeɪʃən -sɪ-] 1. thanks or gratitude 2. assessment of the true worth or value of persons or things I find it hard to write a sentimental random post but it used to be my strength to blab and crap. What has aging done to me?! #lookingforexcuses Referring to the title, this post is about appreciation (duh...) but I don't know where to start :| You will be surprised to know that this post has been in draft stage for more than 5 days. I thought of giving up but I have so much to tell! I've been through some down times but this time around I didn't have the chance to be in the emo stage for too long becauseeeeeee someone was there to pull me out of it. My family didn't question much and no pressure given on decisions that I've made maybe they are trying to ignore me...hahaha . And the crabbies, no questions asked when they sensed that I have no intention to do any story-telling. I thank them for the respect and trust. I would say in a...

Yesterday, crab king invited us to his house for some home cooked food. Who can resist home cooked meal? It's like the best food in the world - it's healthier, cook with care (more hygienic) and most importantly with love :) *cough*! I arrived on time and crab king was cleaning the prawns. It's his virgin attempt to cook butter prawns - also one of my favorite dishes. I love the egg floss! Chef for the butter prawns. The rest of the dishes are prepared by Jin ~! Tadah! That's the butter prawn - with egg floss and butter sauce *slurp* Fried pork with wolfberries. My 1st time trying this combination, not bad at all :) The dishes for the night - cucumber pickles, roast duck, fried vege with mushroom, butter prawns, fried pork with wolfberries and beetroot soup! Roast duck bought by lil alien crab. We didn't manage to finish it :| Too much food. After dinner, we spent our time watching TV and talking craps as usual. I bought Ai Yu Bing (jelly...

It was ad-hoc as tickets were purchased a day before the travel date (yea, that's me. As cool as you can get #dontpuke). I was going through a very down time at that moment. My then boss was very kind to allow me to take off from work for a week still need to work from home la  to sort out my mind. While thinking rubbish  resting at home, I managed to catch up with Pam Pam online and she asked me to visit her in Hong Kong! So I got stimulated by her (hahaha) and rushed to the Air Asia counter in KL Central to purchase tickets (couldn't purchase online coz it's less than 24 hours, I think). Not many photos taken because I was not in the mood (I was depressed leh). I only took photos when I was out with Pam, that's when I was feeling slightly better. Thanks Pam for being there and let me put up at her place for 4 nights, also thanks for the Internet connection (for me to work from home *ahem*). Yeah, that's emo me.  Hairy Crab! It was the season. The...

One of my close friends is getting married in Nov 2012 and I volunteer to help her on a couple of things. I guess you  must have known from the title, one of the tasks is to work out the wedding song list. The selected songs will be played during the wedding dinner. She told me she prefers oldies but it's okay if it's a mix of new and old songs. I happily agreed on the task as two years ago, I attended more than 10 wedding dinners within a year and I've heard more than 100 over songs being played during those dinners.So, lets see what I've got on my mind: This is a great proposal song. Selected because I love it :p "Me a family, a house a family, ooh, can we be a family? And when I'm 80 years old and sittin next to you" - sweet :) I like this song a lot but I find it a bit overused :| You found her, loving her the way she is even though she's not perfect. I used to be so crazy over this song. Singing and listening everyday ...

I am not sure if you read my blog. But, I want to write this out. I've been holding back my feelings and emotions because I don't want to put all the blames on you. It has been 5 months plus since I knew about your existence. I will never forget how I find out about you on his birthday. How you've tried so hard to contact him although you know clearly that he's with me so far away from Malaysia. How shaky was I when I find out about his betrayal. I put all the blames on him at the very beginning. He knows that he's a man with a gf but still he has chosen to betray me to be with you. It's his fault for not being honest and loyal enough. I was heartbroken, I know things will never be the same again. Do you know when I started to have hatred towards you? When you kept calling and smsing him at night - Europe time. Knowing that I will definitely be next to him. Sending intimate sms to him begging for his return. I know you were sad because he's no longer...

Haha, I just digged out one of my draft entries and decided to publish it since I have written more than 2 paragraphs..Don't waste ma... I've been thinking a lot recently, about what's happening around me, about the world, about love, about life ... the list goes on. My body and mind are tired, I know it's time to go to bed but I really wana write something. The urge to voice out what's on my mind is too strong T_T. BUT please forgive me if you don't know/understand what I am writing next. Few days ago, I was being told that one of my good friend just broke up with her bf. They were together for 4 years and now ended up walking different paths. I know some of you will tell me time will never be the main reason of a break up, there are many couples/husband & wife that go separate ways even after being together for more than 10 years. I was just wondering what's the reason given by the person who initiates to part ways, "we are not meant ...

This afternoon (during lunch time okay, I didn't curi malas), I was browsing through blogs and I came across a love quote on my friend's blog. "Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable." - C.S. Lewis My first response after reading the quote - "I'd choose to be vulnerable even though I know it will hurt. If my heart will be broken, so, be it then." Love hurts because there is no such thing as a perfect relationship. We fall in love, we argue, we get hurt, we patch things up or we break apart with incurable scars - be i...

Edit: the blog is a bit messy now, will do something about it when I am home -_- I was there, there, there and there: So messy. I doubt you know where I went for my holidays -_-. So ... I am back to London T_T Life doesn't stop here, I still have to go to work everyday till end of Sept T_T. Before landing ... to show you which budget airline I go for..hohoho Sorry, no pics from the trip yet coz most of them are with Abi. I am still waiting for him to transfer everything to my external hard disk. We have taken more than 2,000 photos in 9 days...have to la since we spent a fortune on the trip!!! Have to take kao kao and capture all the scenes to cover back what we paid, darn kiasu I know -_-. Anyway, I've bought something for the crabs. I can't help it when I saw them in Venice. They are made from the famous Murano Glass in Venice. Extremely fragile, damn pressure to carry back to London - it doesn't end here coz I still have to bring them back to MY T_T...but for the cra...

edit: Spice it up http://forum.lavenusworld.com/ because I cried too much yesterday. I cried for an hour yesterday, pilling up used/wet tissues on my table, released quite an amount of water from my body, had my eyes swollen and I was so tired. ALL BECAUSE OF a silly love drama -_-. I couldn't believe it as well, how I got so emotional attached to the story. Perhaps I am lacking of love chemistry in my life @_@. Sorry for not updating, I have been a liar for many times and I am not afraid to admit it because that is me T_T. boohoo, please accept me for who I am, I know you will...hahaha. Anyway, life has been the same: - went for theater the first time in London. The Lord of the Rings is amazing! At first, I couldn't imagine how they can summarize 3 movies into a 3-hour-play on stage but surprisingly they did a great job. I was amazed by the technology and stage effects. I have no regrets paying 20 pounds for the ticket and we even agree that we wouldn't mind paying more fo...

all the lovey-dovey Taiwanese series. Oh, I just can't help it. Sorry I am not updating everyday because I am too busy watching series online. They are influencing me so much you couldn't believe it. I am feeling so much better about life after watching them...haha. I know it's just a show but it triggers something inside me that makes me feel like being in love again =) I will update more tonight=)

edit again: After watching more episodes, I realised is not the girl that is lucky, is the guy. He is fortunate to have a girl that's loving him unconditionally. edit: I am going to watch It started with a kiss tonight!!! Yesterday I told myself: To sleep at 11pm - Failed To read some blog revamp related articles - Failed To cheer up - Failed To make a hot drink for myself due to the cold weather - Failed To enjoy the remaining time in UK before I leave - Failed To contact my friends - Failed To stop isolating myself - Failed haiz, how la like that? All because I ended up watching 惡作劇2吻 online T_T- the famous Taiwanese series. You know there's something about watching series, once you started you can't stop. I got so addicted to it I kept watching until 1am -_-. There were 20 episodes and guess what, I watched the first one, half of second and then skipped the rest straight to the last episode...wahahha. Come on la, I know the guy and the girl will live happily together no ...

that's what I am feeling today =). Used my dad's supplementary credit card to purchased something online coz I left mine at home. I asked him whether I should transfer the money to his account or pay him back when I am home (reason being, he used to say it's better to keep the money in UK coz of the higher interest). Daddy's reply "For your dec birthday la"... I am damn touched lor T_T. I couldn't remember when was the last time I used my parents money - not that I want to, it's just that it was so long ago I couldn't remember how was the feeling of being pampered and sheltered like I was a little kid. I am financially independent since I started working and I know that I should be contributing to the family instead of asking money from my parents. So, it feels really good to be treated like my parents little girl again =) P.S. Later on, evil me was thinking I should have swiped for another item before sending my dad the sms telling him the amount...

Yesterday marked the half year anniversary of me being in London. Time flies like nobody's business without considering my fear of growing old T_T Oct 2007 Landed in London and can't wait to fulfill my travel dreams. Everything look so good! Shifted thrice, from the mini-tiny hostel room to a private studio and ended up in a houseshare with a room that fits 3. Spent most of my savings on accommodation. Experienced having bread and water as lunch. Steal Took the toilet roll from the public loo. Squeezed lotsa Mayo & Ketchup from the bottles in the fast food restaurant when we had our cheap meals so that we can bring the extras home. (can you imagine that T_T) Went for 3-4 job interviews and secure none. Emotion was like a roller coaster. Home sick, love sick and with worries of running out of cash. Nov 2007 Still jobless, started doubting my decision to be here - why did I make such a stupid decision and come here to suffer!!! Badly bitten by bed bugs. Went to the hospi...

This is the first and last time I am gonna reveal my age here -_-. Today is my 25th birthday, quarter of my life. This is the first time I am not having my birthday celebration in Malaysia. I wouldn't wana deny that I miss having my love ones by my side. I am having mix feelings now and it will take long to elaborate my thoughts. 25 years ... I am feeling so sentimental now -.-! So, I just want to say thank you to those who have sent their wishes. Thanks to my cousins who surprised me with a cake and Heineken. Thank you for the effort and I love you guys!!! I want to thank a special person. I almost cried (but I didn't la ... I am a tough girl *cough*) because of the surprise. I was so angry coz you didn't call me at 12am Malaysia time to wish me. When I called you, you were sleeping like a pig -_-. BUT when I see the present in the oven, my heart melted. Thank you for everything. I really didn't expect the present from you coz I was only expecting a birthday card >....

I got my pay! wahaha, my first pay in London *hopping excitingly* I couldn't describe my feelings now. It's a sense of relief. The burden I've been shouldering since months ago have been lifted - not totally but at least I don't have to worry about my rent for the next few months. Another good side of it, I can finally purchase some of the necessities I've wanted to buy long time ago. I need to get an extra set of thermal wear, beverage bottle for hot drinks (my stomach can no longer take the cold water here), a coat/thicker winter jacket & etc. I will try to save as much $ as possible for my expenses in London. I seriously in need of security now till my boss confirmed me *fingers cross* I miss my family a lot! They will travel to Bali this Sunday, I wish I can be there with them. BUT even if I am not there, my heart is with them! Going to zZz now. Have a great weekend and enjoy your holidays! Photo of the day ~ Company Christmas Party ~Happines...

As usual Friday is always the busiest day. Half way working (rushing) I got a sms from Abi saying he's going for his colleague's farewell. My heart sank after reading the sms because Fei is not at home as well -.- (she is working). That means I will have to dine alone AGAIN! Trust me, the feeling sux coz the same situation occurred few weeks ago. I was rather down and loneliness takes its toll on me. I don't even wana recall it -.- I tried to call Eleanor's (colleague from Ghana) extension but she didn't pick up(though I saw her sitting at her place - too busy gua -.-). Went online to look for my biao ge and he is not online. Haiz...does that mean I am destined to have dinner alone? My innermost feeling is 100% confirm that I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE T_T. In the end, I built up my courage and asked my colleague (the only person from my team who's still in the office and we only talked about work) if she would mind having dinner with me coz I don't want to ...

I have a habit of checking the mail basket everytime I come home coz I hope there are letters for me (we have a small basket in the living room to hold all our letters). Especially letters that are handwritten. Now you know why I keep on asking "you guys" to mail me la coz I am anticipating for it!...not email okay! What I mean is snail mail where you need to buy a stamp to send it -.- "you guys" inclusive of any of my friends unless you refuse to admit you know me...kanasai. What? don't know my address? ASK ME! I am more than willing to give it to you...haha..no excuse not to mail me anything okay...you should know how much it means to me right? I need something physical to warm my heart (e.g. a man photo of yours, a card or $$ >. As usual I was flipping through all the letters and not paying high hope (coz being disappointed for many times liao =p). After a few glances, I saw my name on one of the letters. Somemore with familiar handwritings and Malaysia s...