Turning Point 转折点

It was not a smooth sailing start for 2016 but we just got to keep moving; learn and improve. Then I saw this TVC on YouTube and I find it really meaningful. There's no guarantee to success, but not trying is a guarantee of failure :) Again, I spent sometime communicating with myself (I am not CRAZY ok): Whenever you are rejected, you are reluctant to try again. Why?  Why are you so afraid to make mistakes?  Do you know it is absolutely okay to make mistakes? As long as you learn from them and do not repeat them.  No one expects you to be perfect. You are no one and you know that's impossible unless you are not human -_-  It is alright to admit your flaws. Apologize, fix things, learn and move on.  Last but not least,  Whatever you do, enjoy the journey, embrace the good and learn from the bad. Most importantly, be happy! 

I've been slacking. Have been feeling reluctant to on my PC after working hours since months ago. Maybe age is catching up or maybe I am just too lazy. Didn't really have the mood to write a proper blog post and I just realised because I was trying hard not to reveal my real emotions. I used to blurt about everything and poor English/grammar mistake is never my concern but I am not sure since when I started to stop myself from being too emotional. Soooooo, in year 2013, I just want to be myself when I blog. That means I am free to use lazy/busy as execuses of not blogging, I can write long wordy posts without any pictures, I can be as emo as I want, I can curse as much as I like, I can go with random posts when I am not in the mood etc etc I know it's a tad late but better late than never :). I have been slacking in updating my blog but it's not like anyone is reading. *knock* Hello? Anyone there? A recap on year 2012: January  It wasn't a pleasant mon...

So much to do, so little time.  There's so much I want to achieve. It's obvious that discipline and persistency are the keys. Regardless of how reluctant I am to turn on the computer after working hours, I am still forcing myself to do it. You can't always remain in your comfort zone. Still trying hard to wake up at 630am though, haven't managed to reach the target >.< It's so TOUGH!   The perfect weather to sleep in, the cozy bed...with these factors in place, how to wake up -_-? It's just a short post / a random one for today. Back to work :p I'd like mornings better if they started later.  ~Author Unknown

3 weeks after the accident and I am almost fully recovered with minor side-effects that hopefully will be gone few months later. I do suffer from dizziness and had difficulties to focus due to cerebral concussion but I believe my brain will be back to its normal state very soon. I did feel a little emotional after the accident but a conversation with the crabbies helped. Especially when I was told that they are glad to be able to speak to me again *sob*. Just realised, it was that close :|. Enough of the accident. Let's talk about something happy. Within two weeks, I attended two weddings and visited a new born. I am so happy for my friends :) I can still remember few years back, Ah Tai told me about this girl he met in the church. Fast forward, 2 years later he's married to the lovely lady. It was a fabulous wedding held in Hotel Maya and also a great gathering with the Lepak Here group (most of us are quite sensitive towards the group name...hahaha).  Visited th...

Just realized I've not blogged for almost a month :O! (ok, I confess I know it has been this long but I'm jus too busy, lalala) Just a quick update, celebrated our Nth anniversary @ the magic mall (u know which mall :p? I'm bad to mention this) Nth anniversary coz it's a secret number. Once revealed I think we will be whacked by many people or maybe just Bin :p Had dinner @ Watami, gonna do a review soon! My favorite dish from Watami  Went for company trip, visited Hanoi for the 1st time. It was fun spending time with colleagues. Will blog about it later. Just a quick update to let you know I'm surviving. Nights! P.S. Time flies, it's already 2nd half of year 2012. Looking back at the 1st half- I've made some decisions, traveled quite a bit, cried a couple of times, grateful for family support, spent time with good friends & etc etc. But most importantly, I think I'm a happier person now :D The rest of the 2012 is gonna be Awesome! I...

appreciation [əˌpriːʃɪˈeɪʃən -sɪ-] 1. thanks or gratitude 2. assessment of the true worth or value of persons or things I find it hard to write a sentimental random post but it used to be my strength to blab and crap. What has aging done to me?! #lookingforexcuses Referring to the title, this post is about appreciation (duh...) but I don't know where to start :| You will be surprised to know that this post has been in draft stage for more than 5 days. I thought of giving up but I have so much to tell! I've been through some down times but this time around I didn't have the chance to be in the emo stage for too long becauseeeeeee someone was there to pull me out of it. My family didn't question much and no pressure given on decisions that I've made maybe they are trying to ignore me...hahaha . And the crabbies, no questions asked when they sensed that I have no intention to do any story-telling. I thank them for the respect and trust. I would say in a...

I wanted to blog since last Monday but I don't know what to  write  blog about. It's not like my life is bored yes, in fact it is :|  Anyway, whatever that comes to my mind now will be penned down. Just for future reference, lol. A couple of weeks ago, I made a decision that closed a chapter in my life. It's a tough one. Went through hard times and emotional downturn that I wouldn't want to mention or even recall. Nevertheless, lessons learned. I am glad that my family and bf are here for me. As for now, I am taking a short break to regain my health - hence the participation of yoga classes, morning jog and swimming. Unsure about the future yet and has no clear direction but I keep telling myself "just move on!". On a happier note, I will be doing something that I like most for the next few weeks. I won't reveal much now as I don't want to jinx it :D. If you are my blog reader since years ago, you should know ;)! Batad, Philippines Rock b...

I want to write a proper entry but it's raining outside...lol. How do they relate? I just need an excuse not to blog a proper post tonight. It's just one of those nights where you feel like skipping your routine, empty your mind and act according to your heart instead of brain. Ok...ok... I know it's just me feeling that way :| In fact, I am just too lazy to edit the photos and dig out old info.  I need the following desperately now: DETERMINATION PERSISTENCE PASSION & most importantly -> ACTION ! I need to get back to work now. Promise it's gonna be a proper post the next round :). Many people think they want things, but they don't really have the strength, the discipline. They are weak. I believe that you get what you want if you want it badly enough. ~Sophia Loren

I've changed a bit recently. The current me thinks about work all the time. I have been reaching office earlier than usual for this whole week (though 930am is not consider early to many ppl =p but I used to start at 10am >. I want to start working earlier so that I can do more. I work until 8+, sometimes even 10+ at night because I feel that I haven't done enough. When I am driving, I think about how I can improve the the product, the flow of the system and how to work better with the team. When I am back from work, I will continue with what's leftover. It's a never-ending process. What's on my mind now is to improve, to be better, to know more, to show results and most importantly - to prove myself. I have to say, I have been inspired. I have been inspired to the extend that, I know and believe I can give so much more than what I am contributing to my job. It's not about the money (okayla, it does matter) nor the position, it's about self-recognition an...

Yes, after 1 week + of non-stop traveling - I am back to London. I miss London so much. At least I don't have any communication problems here -_- Summary of my trip: Berlin - Lovely people and nice (cheap) local food. Oh, and the so famous Berlin Wall. Prague - This is the most beautiful country out of the 4 Vienna - Gosh, people that I've met are rude, things are expensive and I even argued with an old man in the toilet (will elaborate about this when I have time)!!! Don't think I will go back again. Budapest - Something different compare to other central Europe countries. Really old buildings, underground & etc etc. I enjoyed walking in the biggest market. No time to write a longer entry, I will leave London again tomorrow morning. Sorry as I have no time to reply to comments & chat msgs. You can email me at slimmestleg@gmail.com . I will be damn free to reply your email @ the beginning of Nov....haha..sleeping time.

Sometimes I do wonder how not-so-good-things (I don't want to say bad coz I know I am luckier than many ppl in this world!) can happen to me all at once. 1. Bitten by mysterious bugs - My right hand was swollen and I couldn't stop scratching my hand. It was so itchy that I scratched my hand subconsciously while I was sleeping. The red blotches started to spread the next day and I was forced to take medicine. It's better now but my left hand is still scratching my right hand (why does this sound so wrong -_-?). I realised I am so prone to being bitten by bugs in London - beg bugs, spiders & all kind of weird bugs. I don't know why. The only explanation is - London hates me. Actually my cousins experienced the same thing as well but I am always the one with serious allergy. 2. Hostelworld Booking error - I was surfing Hostelworld for the past few days and realised their system has a very serious bug. If you open Hostelworld in multiple windows at the same time...

visited 15 states (6.66%) Apparently, I've only been to 15 countries and only 6.66% out of the total. I am almost sure that, there won't be a 100% for me. There are places that I will never consider of going ... (but it will be a different saying if I am being sponsored =p). Being a working holiday maker has allowed me to travel to many Europe countries and I am glad I have taken up the opportunity. Just a little sad that I won't have enough time to leave my footprints in all the Europe countries. There are things and people in Malaysia that are holding me back. It's just time for me to go home after leaving my country for almost a year. Counting down ... to the day I am a free man/woman again - 22 days to the day for my undone Europe trip - 24 days to the day someone will be here - 38 days to the day for my 2nd part of the undone Europe trip but this time, with you - 40 days to the day I bid farewell to London - 53 days to the day I step on my home soil once again - 55...

Myself~ Fei has gone out for a date and CJ is in Cardiff now. So I am home alone! I am actually suspecting it should be flat alone instead of home alone. Seeing that my neighbors downstairs have just moved out few days ago (they scolded us elephant -__-!) and the neighbors upstairs are not around (if they are, we can hear them walking around - like elephant..ahem, you should be able to get what the whole elephant thingy means...hahaha). BUT, I am feeling absolutely fine! So don't sympathize with me, especially on this miserable rainy day -_-. I have good plans ahead to date myself -__-. Dinner: - Leftover Pork Chop rice with gravy from last night - Home cooked white fish soup with lettuce (of course by me~) - Sweet and sour prawn balls! Argh...can't wait to eat them all. I have set a target to settle all my house chores before touching the food. I have to clean the bathroom, wash the floor mats and vacuum the flat. After that, it will be my home alone time, I am already thinki...

Sorry, no mood to update, having PMS, can't help it. Everything seems to be wrong - people who walk slowly in front of me, the summer-like-winter weather, the list of Paris hotels that make me headache, the crowded tube, the Converse I wanted to buy no longer selling on Amazon, have to drag myself up at 6am tomorrow morning & etc etc ... Although everything go according plan ... I still can't help to be frustrated . I will be away for the long weekend, heading to Edinburgh and Loch Ness. Hopefully I can get to see the legendary lake monster -____-. Have a great weekend all! ~Anger is a killing thing: it kills the man who angers, for each rage leaves him less than he had been before - it takes something from him - Louis L'Armour~

in 6 hours time. Very very tired and sleepy now. Wana find out where I am heading? You will know tomorrow =) Have a great weekend! P.S. Miss Fei, please take good care of our territory~

edit: Spice it up http://forum.lavenusworld.com/ because I cried too much yesterday. I cried for an hour yesterday, pilling up used/wet tissues on my table, released quite an amount of water from my body, had my eyes swollen and I was so tired. ALL BECAUSE OF a silly love drama -_-. I couldn't believe it as well, how I got so emotional attached to the story. Perhaps I am lacking of love chemistry in my life @_@. Sorry for not updating, I have been a liar for many times and I am not afraid to admit it because that is me T_T. boohoo, please accept me for who I am, I know you will...hahaha. Anyway, life has been the same: - went for theater the first time in London. The Lord of the Rings is amazing! At first, I couldn't imagine how they can summarize 3 movies into a 3-hour-play on stage but surprisingly they did a great job. I was amazed by the technology and stage effects. I have no regrets paying 20 pounds for the ticket and we even agree that we wouldn't mind paying more fo...

edit again: After watching more episodes, I realised is not the girl that is lucky, is the guy. He is fortunate to have a girl that's loving him unconditionally. edit: I am going to watch It started with a kiss tonight!!! Yesterday I told myself: To sleep at 11pm - Failed To read some blog revamp related articles - Failed To cheer up - Failed To make a hot drink for myself due to the cold weather - Failed To enjoy the remaining time in UK before I leave - Failed To contact my friends - Failed To stop isolating myself - Failed haiz, how la like that? All because I ended up watching 惡作劇2吻 online T_T- the famous Taiwanese series. You know there's something about watching series, once you started you can't stop. I got so addicted to it I kept watching until 1am -_-. There were 20 episodes and guess what, I watched the first one, half of second and then skipped the rest straight to the last episode...wahahha. Come on la, I know the guy and the girl will live happily together no ...

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been thinking a lot recently ... okay, I admit I am just too lazy to write...wahaha. Anyway, I am still well and in one piece. Things I've done for the past few weeks: - went for a Organ Gala Concert (it was OKAY though I did yawn a few times T_T. The play was good it's just the lack of artistics appreciation in me *shy*) - went to Wimbledon, saw Rafael Nadal & Roger Federer - did lotsa research for the trip end of this month (will let you know where I am going, if you are interested) - went to the Emirates Stadium just to take pictures of the Arsenal logo - sleep, eat, shit and my tummy is growing like I am pregnant now -____- I am really thinking a lot recently, I realised I have stopped learning since I left uni/started working. I do learn new stuffs at work but the learning I am saying here it's to master something new that's not related to my job at all. It's a very sad case that I don't really have a hobby now (s...

Do you know that it actually takes a lot of courage (or maybe stupidity - I never thought of the consequences) to be where I am now? I am never a brave person so I have to be honest to you I am actually damn scared now T_T. When I am here shielding myself from reality, most of my peers in Malaysia are getting closer to their targets in life with excellent career prospects, financially stable, getting married, forming a family and so on ... Then I w ill start querying myself - wtf am I doing here -_-? I start to wonder what I will be facing when I am back to MY. I knew from the beginning that, once I made up my mind to be here I should have had prepared myself for the worst when I go home. But still, I can't help to be worried T_T. Career, relationship, money & etc etc, I don't feel like I am standing firm on the ground now. Everything just seem so unpredictable. I still don't have a decisive direction for my career and I am missing my ex-colleagues/best friends a ...

I am so down. It's the time of the month again! At least I feel better now because I know I am not having depression or some mental problems (yes, I did suspect that I am having mental issue -_-). Btw, I've read the news about the fuel hike in Malaysia. I only have this on my mind - "BN jiak sai la!" 41% of price hike is crazy. Have they ever considered about the consequences before they make such a big decision (maybe it's not big to them coz they just need to use their mouth to announce it!). Seriously, can you imagine the aftermath of the price rise? I don't want to go home to experience expensive hawker food & almost doubled fuel price! The worst of all, the salary will never rise! Don't doubt my love towards my country but can the government just stop pushing me away from my home grown land with their lack-of-consideration-decision?