Turning Point 转折点

It's time to change my blog title as well as the layout but I am just too lazy to do anything. Life has been ... the same. Work -> Home -> Work -> Home -> Work ... It's so bored that I wish the cycle doesn't have to be repeated. I haven't been feeling too well for the past 2 weeks. It's hard for me to accept that I can't change the past because I am still feeling sad about certain things that have happened. The pain is just so extreme that, sometimes I wish I have never knew and met certain people in my life. It's easier to forgive than forget. The scars are just incurable. I find it hard to trust people now. I am just not me anymore.

I've changed a bit recently. The current me thinks about work all the time. I have been reaching office earlier than usual for this whole week (though 930am is not consider early to many ppl =p but I used to start at 10am >.<). I want to start working earlier so that I can do more. I work until 8+, sometimes even 10+ at night because I feel that I haven't done enough. When I am driving, I think about how I can improve the the product, the flow of the system and how to work better with the team. When I am back from work, I will continue with what's leftover. It's a never-ending process. What's on my mind now is to improve, to be better, to know more, to show results and most importantly - to prove myself. I have to say, I have been inspired. I have been inspired to the extend that, I know and believe I can give so much more than what I am contributing to my job. It's not about the money (okayla, it does matter) nor the position, it's about self-recognit

on mind now. It has been almost 6 months since I am back from London. That means I have stopped traveling for almost 6 months (Penang, Melaka and Tioman doesn't count =p). While I was taking my shower half an hour ago, this thought suddenly came to my mind - I should not leave my backpack aside for too long. My heart is pounding quicker than usual when I thought of this because I know well that what comes next will be totally crazy! I am not going to reveal anything yet but I have drafted out a very brief plan. It's crazy but definitely possible if I want it to happen. This is definitely something I am looking forward to =)